Using What I Have Journal Entry #18: Blueberry White Chocolate Chip Cookies

 

I've found myself in a new pattern that is working for me, though somehow I feel like it shouldn't be working, and like I'm doing something strangely illicit. But I'm focused on using the things I have, whatever they are, until I absolutely have to go to the store. I still have food when I go to the store, mind you. I'm not going to run out. But I am getting more comfortable with just dealing with running out of things.

I needed a snack for the week, and had some blueberries in the freezer. I've long wanted to make these fascinating purple cookies from Organically Addison, and here was my opportunity. My version was a bit less dramatically purple than hers, but they were still fun. And they tasted good!

For the salt in the recipe, I had run myself out of the bog standard table salt, and had to use the fancy pink volcanic salt someone gave me for a present. And I did not panic. I had an initial rise of anxiety when I realized I did not have my default table salt, but then I looked around me. I had the pink volcanic salt, flaky sea salt, kosher salt, and black salt. Things were going to get salted. It was okay.

And that's a conversation I'm having with myself pretty frequently these days. It's not that I wasn't going to buy salt--I definitely was!--or that I didn't feel silly for not buying some when I ran low--I did!--but that I realized that I can be resourceful and the world doesn't end. There may be cost spikes soon, and shortages. Life is unpredictable. But I can rely on myself.

It's so nice to find that one's own self is a trustworthy "partner," isn't it?

As for the cookies, I may have underbaked them somewhat, but I really enjoyed them. I just wish they weren't so pale.